So we got the information on the organ recipients from my brother Jason. I expected that hearing about the good fortune of these individuals would lessen the pain my mom and I are still feeling from the loss of him, but I remain uncomforted. Uncomfortable is a good word for the day. Woke up uncomfortable in my own skin due to the doc weaning me off a medication. So, everything is uncomfortable. I need to be comfortable knowing that Jay's life continues through the life of others. Specifically: a 57 year old woman who received Jay's liver. A 71 year old woman who received his left kidney. A 62 year old gentleman who received his right kidney. And a 27 year old man who received his lungs. God bless each of these people. But God bless us as well as we come to accept losing the one and only brother I have / had. Not even two months later, how can we? A new life has begun for the Cunningham's.... we are getting smaller and smaller. Humbled by the loss of many loved ones. Not one of these loved ones was unaffected by organ transplantation themselves. It seems to be the one battle we all have to tackle while on this planet. I won't be ready to tackle my own organ transplant battle until I'm comfortable with the ones in my present and past time.
Mom says that dinner's ready. I'm comfortable with that!
